Thursday, January 7, 2010

lost and stressed

Wow where to start...been like 3 or so months since i have blogged...Well not much good news to say. My grandpa passed away Oct 29th, he had cancer all over his body and there was nothing that they could do. I feel so bad for my grandma, now she is left all alone in Sask, in a hamlet of like 20 ppl, very few family close by. She cant even sell the house and come back cuz no one out there is gonna buy a house in the buck fuck no where, where you have to drive a half hour to even get a jug of milk. I really miss her and i hope i can see her again soon.
Braden and i have been....ok..we are fighting more but thats just cuz we are so stressed out about everything. He currently has no job cuz he was told he has a really really good job in cochran and the day he was supposed to start they said they were too slow and not hiring anymore (even though the guy said he was hired and he put his 2 weeks notice at shell) ugh but tomorrow he has a job interview at Sunpine and if not there my dad is trying to get him a job at the shop as an apprentice..which is good. But he has been out a job for the past 3 weeks and my pay cheques suck right now b/c they cut me down to 12 hours a week b/c Jan and Feb, are the 2 slowest months of the year. I cant live off that shit! 12 hrs a week doest even cover my car payment for the month, thats also not including my insurance, gas, rent or food. FML...so now i have been trying to get a second job, or a better Ft job that pays more. there are a few places that im going to try...now its just crossing my fingers and praying.
So ya i hope that once things are not so deep in the hole me and braden will get better. He is honestly the love of my life, i cant imagine my future without him. I know im still young and everything but i dont want it to be any other way. <3

Mmmmm not much else to talk about, Ill really try to blog more often.

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